Let's try this again! My re-introduction.

Hello! my name is Muriel and I take and absorb from everything around me.

And during the process I filter out everything that doesn't match, set aside what needs to be explored deeper, and yes sometimes, forget and let them pile up.

I have to go and discard everything, because I don't have the time and I know that life doesn't stop for anyone or anything. In the process of elimination, when I rid myself of some valuable information, I don’t even worry for I know, if it's good and meant for me, it will always come back. Mistakes are lessons, lessons contain those information.

I will spend a long time learning from an external source but eventually I will need to process and apply it in ways that seems fit to me. I cannot follow people, rather, I follow the light which can be found within people. This is where for me the difference lies. It’s always been this way. I do not need to refer to my numerology calculations to know this, (life path #1 individualist from the blue print... ???). I have a need to observe and study, as well as feel and experience my way through life rather than just take the words of others for it.

Now, along the way and even from the beginning, many things have happened. Being a woman, black, and Haitian has influenced much of it, so my alter ego just built a fortress to hide me in for protection. Oh Lily! Thanks, my dear! that is where 99.9% of our personality structures come from. But anyways, I began destr

oying this fortress so I could come out. I'll admit that things and people were so strange that I'd take comfort staying in and watching. So, like a creep I watched for a long time... I know there may be a lot of people tired of me being this or that way, but they are also waiting to witness me coming out as my glorious self, however that could be. I am actually very grateful for them because if I was ever hated for any reason, it's probably because I am and feel so darn good, people just couldn't handle it.

But completion is upon me now: 9 years! Same number of years that my darling son is turning soon in October. Words like "You will never find someone to love you, honor you, or even take you seriously like me, no one who would want to present you to the world as their person or wife", I admit, buried me in deep, deeply under. You see, to think that I could be so bad to hurt others, I preferred actually to isolate myself to prevent me from ruining other people live. That is what I believed I did, what I believed me to be: not worthy of light. But I now realized he was right the whole time. My son's father was right! I will never find someone to love me like he did, because the way that he did was sick, toxic, wrong, abusive, possessive, ugly, dis-eased, incorrect and dysfunctional. Honestly, he blessed me really with these words, even if at that time I could not see it! Honestly, why would I ever want that?

But after 6-ish years of Yoga, I was bound to realize it! I have done my time, quietly, patiently, learning and healing a series and layers of wounds you wouldn't even imagine I have experienced. I have done it and it even became a life mission to help others do the same.

You see, once my 1-year-old son almost caught me cutting up my wrist (I didn't do it by the way), I felt like I died, I begged the invisible forces to take me to an alternative place, even if it meant by force. I had unknowingly surrendered completely. And without realizing, I had begun manifesting this alternative change, it literally happened and I got to meet the most amazing yoga teacher you could ever think to meet in Haiti. Everyone knows who that is in Haiti, I really do not need to say. She knows how eternally grateful I'll forever be. But that person is Ama Makeda if you're curious. You can find her on Instagram and Facebook as @amamakeda.

But my purpose now is in giving back, to help others that are like I was to do the same through Yoga. Yoga is a whole lifestyle. It isn't just exercises on a mat. I found myself, the first and only person who needed to love me fully and present me to the world as the most amazing woman I could be; when I was told that I would never. And that is liberating, that is happiness and pure bliss. It all happened through my practice of Yoga. And of course a certain amount of will power. A hope followed by action.

The changes that take place in the mind, the nervous system, the body and the whole psyche in general is very real, deep and it is those changes that people usually fear and that is why nowadays, yoga in the western world is just what you know it to be: trendy, a sport, or a fancy thing to do. People run from themselves, but not I. I did it! I never ran. I'm still going deeper and deeper every day. And I can help anyone who actually wants to take their healing journey seriously to not be afraid and not run anymore. I have been practicing for a short or long 6 years (and some changes, depending on how you want to look at it ???) and I have been teaching for 5 years. My Guru teacher could not certify me in Haiti, but thanks to her I was able to be certified in India!

I travelled for a month in Bengaluru, India and attended the Yoga Instructor Course (YIC) at Swami Vivekananda Yoga Anusandhana Samsthana (A Yoga University), where I earned my certification as a yoga ambassador/ instructor and as well as a bonus certification for Yoga for diabetes.

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I continued to widen my studies and learned how to practice for anxiety, depression, excessive tension, all the things I personally needed for my own healing. I became fascinated with the inner working of the mind and I am constantly aiming to develop and master all things mental. I do not own any PhD. or Doctorate in any conventional westernized medical field, nor am I a neuroscientist or a researcher with years of experiences as a scholar, though I do have a certificate in herbalism, that kind of counts to. But what I have is the proof of my life, what I have is my experience and 6-7 years of practice.

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What I also have today is an overwhelming confidence that is coming from an internal burning energy of duty to give back what I have earned over the years in yoga. As if, 6-7 years is only Earth years, and that time is running out for me here. I notice that I keep going on and off when it comes to my method of teaching and I have even struggled when it came to establishing myself as a yoga teacher in my community. The reason is that on a surface level, it is hard to figure out how to express authenticity in a world that promotes its suppression. the truth about me is that, I have no interest in being that cliché yoga teacher. I want to transfer to others the same way the knowledge was transferred back to me. Of course, I have to eat and provide for myself and my son, but I believe that the right people who needs me will find and come to me to receive my services, as I am trying to be more out there and found you here. Thank you!

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Therefore, I will continue to look forward to teaching and leading yoga classes to the public. However, my focus will be on an individual level. With yoga asanas, pranayama, meditation techniques, as well as herbalism, I believe I can assist anyone desiring to take their healing journey in charge and implement changes into their lives for a healthy and happy outcome. I affirm:" The right people will find and love my offering services!"

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I want to thank you for being here, and if you have made it this far and read my story, I am truly grateful for you!

With that being said, you may expect more communication from me, as I am re-branding Muriel and Lily healing house services, and transferring “Les Jardins de Lilith” herbalism brand under the same house. My approach to each client will have a consulting aspect AKA communication in the raw. We will get to know each other and I will do my best to understand your needs and your current state and decide together how we will design the start of your healing journey.

Love Rises, always!

M n L